Friday, May 22, 2009

Journal: Vancouver

November 2005

This picks up where I left off the last excerpt from the moleskin journal I carried with me.


Friday the 18th resumes. It’s a bleary morning when my wake-up call awakens me (too soon). I rethink my plan of attempting to find a better hotel and book two more nights. Then little more rest before setting out in search of healthy food. Right outside a quick bus takes me to the center of the commercial district, a curving street for buses only outside a department store descended from the original Hudson Bay Trading Company. In the wintry bustle I look for young folks who might know where to find a “brown-rice restaurant”. A girl thinks a moment then suggests Commercial Drive and tells me what bus to take, the #20. So I roll off along increasingly desperate-looking urban blocks. Suddenly a guy seated behind me begins to yell at the driver, “Just drive the fucking bus.” He apparently had observed the middle-Eastern driver being in his opinion discourteous to a working-class white woman boarding the bus. The driver doesn’t say a word. It’s another early impression of this feisty Western city somehow reminding me of the United States before all the cloak and dagger security paranoia made everyone seem either timid or ambiguously threatening.

I notice several Rastafarian or hemp-related shops. Most striking among them is the one with the giant sign, BC MARIJUANA Party Bookstore. As the route proliferates with desolate sidewalk scenes, I decide to hop off on a mild–looking block and double back. I get on a 20 bus in the other direction to check out that bookstore and ask for recommendations. I neglect to show my transfer in my hurry. The driver notices but just shakes his head a tad. I get off in a few blocks anyway.





The store is devoted to all things cannabinoid and the guy at the counter is very friendly. When he hears that I am approved for medical-cannabis in California, he sweetly asks to see my identifying cards. He’s obviously delighted by them, the sophistication and progress implied in them. He leaves me a moment to get me the address of the Compassionate Clinic which is also conveniently located on Commercial Drive. There’s a bud just sitting unguarded within reach just behind the counter. I have a sense that rather than just send me to an Amsterdam-style café he wants me to help legitimize the visitor program by going to the clinic as a cannabis patient with credentials. He also has the specifics for a natural foods restaurant along the way.
I start to survey the surrounding topography as I get back on another bus. The fabled snow-covered peaks are visible between buildings where streets slope down to waterside and I pass a little square with a metal statue. It reminds me of Fall River, Massachusetts combined with Santa Cruz, California. I overshoot my stop but enjoy walking back along a street with coffeehouses and nice shops. A cute young guy in a quaintly mismatched suit jacket , shirt and tie addresses me—he’s running for office. We walk together a little even though I’m no potential vote running for office. He knows vaguely where the natural foods cafe is saying it’s called “Sweet Cherubim”. I’m just about famished by the time I arrive but revive with a lunch of curry, brown rice and borscht. The people working and eating there are much like folks you would see in a similar place anywhere in the Bay Area. I watch a sweet quiet girl working and she notices me a little. Very much restored despite approximately eight hours sleep over two days, I get up. Adjoining the cafe is a natural foods shop where I make some purchases including some great local organic chocolate.
Then back out to hop yet another #20 bus all on the same original fare ($2.25). Past a Sky Train station and side streets consisting of more wooden houses. We climb a little hill and I find the area where the clinic is located. Outside the bus is a little park-- deserted but for one semi-furtive man. I refrain from asking him if he knows where the dispensary is, look for a sign, and follow my nose.

Locate the clinic and work with the girl at the desk to be admitted as a visitor. It's a sweet community place. You go behind a thin curtain to the herb counter. There are some easy chairs arranged nearby where people examine their medicine maybe smoke a little. She calls the Green Cross in San Francisco--their computer is down they can't check my name. I have my official letter from Dr. Frank back at my hotel room, but I hadn't planned to need it. They had been thoughtful enough to reproduce my doctor's letter in miniature on the reverse of my Green Cross card. I allow this to be photo-copied along with my driver's license for their file. I'm helping them establish their visitor's program by taking the time to do this.
She calls Dr. Frank's office and they request a fax of my letter. She faxed that, called them back, and that was that. I'm picturing the office assistant in Berkeley checking to see if I'm paid up and legit. Finally so informs me I'm entitled to four visits a year--how charming a thought.
The whole feeling of the place, connected to local medical center, seemed so much more naturally concerned for folks than the stressed-out under-staffed clinics back in California. The only reason she said she needed to confirm it was that both my photo cannabis IDs were out of date, only the non-photo second issue Green Cross card was up to date. She needed both on the same card, absent my letter, again a manifestly reasonable demand. Because it is there, to a lesser extent, as it is here--only trouble-making opponents would go to the lengths of faking pot ID cards so they could later accuse the clinics of having accepted them out of laxity or venality.
I tell the girl I'm going to write up my visit and I may. While this is happening a West Coast style old time hippie guy comes up and pays oblations to me like I was officiating alongside the desk. The white-bearded wants me to bid him adieu, so aI wish him peace. He leaves forgetting his jacket, a testament to the potency of the herb and, as it turned out, a strange foreshadow.
So it's behind the curtain with me. The counter staff is charming and the herb selection chalked on a blackboard is very reasonably-priced. They have four varieties, two for $8 a gram, and two for $9, Canadian dollars. With due deliberation I have arranged to have a sufficient amount for my time in Canada with me already, so I acquire only one gram of their best Sativa. The young man helping me is effusive in his enthusiasm for my experience there. He urges me to try the other best bud as well, but I don't want to have to over-consume to finish it all before reaching the US border next week. They are very interested by my stories of the Bay area medical marijuana scene and express love for the SF Bay Area. They provide me with some of the story of B.C. cannabis, a story which would be added to by other encounters over the next few days. Next I roll it up there producing a book of Club papers to do so. I regale them with my life-time of Club papers story.
Briefly, in 1978 I wrote to Highway Imports for a Club papers poster as advertised in High times magazine. In my letter I told the tale of my summer in Oaxaca in 1974, when buying cigarette papers was a risky business subject to informers relaying the information to the Federales--military drug cops. I had brought a nice supply of packs of Club papers, a very thin high quality paper manufactured in Italy by S.D. Modiano. They have no glue on them but self-adhere quite well when handled properly. My friends and my love for them caught the notice of someone we met who traded me four ounces of a very good, although seed-bearing red and green bud for one pack of Club. Following my letter, a carton arrived at my home from Highway imports, containing ten boxes of fifty books each of the small Club packs, and ten more boxes of packs of their double-wide version, as well as a T-shirt and various printed promotional matter. In a letter they said that they wanted to excerpt my letter in their advertising--perhaps they did, I never saw it. In February 2009, thirty years later, I used the last of my free Club papers to roll a nice shorty of one of my high quality blends.
Back at the Vancouver compassion center, they supplied me with scissors and a tray. I saved it for later as I was still light in my loafers due to lack of much sleep. I bid fond farewell with the feeling of leaving a place I'd probably never see again.
Now I just have to spring for one more fare for my return to the hotel. A bus takes me downhill to the Commercial/Broadway skytrain station. It's fast and fun--no one checks fares, and there are no turnstiles. From the skytrain I see a good deal of the dusky city of Vancouver: a boat mooring lagoon; an old world's fair-like "golf ball" geodesic structure; an "inflatable" stadium: then the looming building downtown. I'm there in no time exiting below the Hudson Bay department store, descendant of the original trading company that traversed Canada. Another bus takes me down trashy but hip Grandville Street to my Howard Johnson's. Snugly back indoors, I sample the newly-acquired organic foods and BC stash--like wow. I soon fall off for a deep nap.
I rise again for adventure by early evening. There's a coffe-machine in the room with nice coffee provided-so I revive with a strong cup or two. A cool bell hop named Curtis directs me to a nearby bottle shop for some libation. This entire part of town is rocking Friday excitement--the sidewalks are jumping. The Canadian style bottle shop amid this party hysteria is a weird experience for someone from south of the border. It is a humorous, no-frivolity state-run place with grim cashiers checking ID in a small place of high prices. In the beer section, heavy on the Molson and Labatts, I say to two guys in a fake Irish accent, "Don't they have Guinness?" They find it and it's a 4-pack of cans for $14.50! But they want me to drop it and accompany them to a casino--they have a limo waiting outside. Bimbos, gambling, booze, late hours--it sounds exactly like what I don't want. I decline the invitation, saying I'm too tired, and I am. They were alright, could tell I'm fun. Rock clubs abound in this part of town including a classic blues road house, The Yale, fronting Yaletown which stretches off across the blocks behind it, just before the Grandville bridge. At another club on the ground floor of my hotel I scrutinize the promo photo of the night's performer. I ask the bouncers, ubiquitous in this rowdy scene, what kind of a place it was. They say she's a country singer I ought to check it out. I tell them I'm out of the game. I'm going to watch TV and drink Guinness. They say that they wish they were doing that too. And it's a mellow enjoyable night in a warm, quiet room. I still manage to be awake until 3AM despite stout, herb. Finally onanistic tension reduction therapy applies. Switching out the lamp, I decide to stay put at HoJo's for the duration of my visit and check out Sunday.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Pacific Northwest Haiku









Ravens circulate
snow abounds on the craggy ridge
reindeer in pens






Endless matchstick trees
this land is made out of wood
on silty rivers






Snowy evergreens
ravens rule a secret realm
elf folk in the rocks





After a tunnel
an eagle rides the updraft
a higher region




November 2005

Friday, May 1, 2009

Journal: Oakland to Vancouver




November, 2005

Wednesday, 16th. Leave home at 7:30 to walk one block to the local bus stop. Wait in mild weather wearing heavy clothes. Full moon and brilliant Mars on the Eastern hills. Full moon loony buzz on bus the length of Telegraph Avenue. My tension over trip abated somewhat by early blunt and supper (tortellini with asparagus and red bell and a glass of stout). But the 72 connection pulls away despite my hustle and I must wait so laden with valuables in proverbial downtown Oakland. Beside me in the shelter is a rather fat semi-black lady. She sits silent until a animated little black lady shows up and they discuss Hurricane Katrina refugees. Fat lady sounds New Orleans. They say rent subsidies have run out for them, how a lady they know was offered a room-share in exchange for sex by a “benefactor.” Lonely driver pulls up in 72 and soon we are stopped by a freight train crossing Broadway. She’s quite annoyed by the delay but cordial to me. The bus drops me at the Oakland Amtrak station’s glass pyramid.
Inside there is considerable effort spent issuing me my 30-day North America Travel Rail Pass and US tickets for my East-bound trip. After some question arising out of the competence or commitment of the various station agents, they get it sorted out and I start signing traveler’s checks. I go to the lobby on the side of the tracks and sit near train-travelling folks in late their late fifties/early sixties. The guy almost breaks his leg retrieving his water bottle from between the seats. I had pointed it out to him and feel some concern for him.
Enough to rub his leg for him with a “God Bless you.” Instant friends we chat until near train time when I go outside to deserted platform to finish me blunt.
Sit down a while and Starlight Express nears, then I scurry to a rear coach car. Directed to a seat, I find a guy sprawled and snoring. I sit nearby until an Amtrak gal reassigns me to another window seat. For this she wakes a Wild West character with a handlebar mustache. He is from Texas, lives in Oregon and is very polite and mostly considerate. He has me copyediting his tales of Oaxaca on his laptop before Emeryville. When I tell him I once lived there he shows me his digital photos of the region and I actually recognize the beach at Salinas Cruz. He even has the café I entered in my green BVDs to join my friends after a minor mishap body-surfing. I give him some times and then slowly withdraw into the night scenes passing the train window. Training though Berkeley I ride the source of the perennial train whistles tonight.
Somewhere in the night woods of Northernmost California I either see or hallucinate a ring of underground fire covered by dark material. Then we’re beyond.









Thursday, 17th. My second day is wild and a bit frazzled. I can only rest while others sleep. I get up and wander a little during the night. Have to have coffee at dawn—the world outside is too striking to sleep through--strange things like pens of reindeer. The black guy in the canteen admires my new train duds—I tell anyone who mentions them how little I paid. I have on a whiskey-colored winter coat, a green plaid woolen shirt-jacket , beige corduroy pants, and some brown suede train slippers when I’m not wearing my black leather Australian boots. For outside wear I have beret or stocking hat, black wool gloves, and a hand-knit green wool scarf—all of which along with another flannel shirt, long-sleeved jerseys and flannel pajama bottoms worn under my pants, all to see me through Winter in Canada and the Northern United States.
Snow abounds on the craggy ridge we follow. Ravens circulate in nearby trees as we stop in order for “road” repair. Through tunnels the train enters a land of water and trees, lakes and rivers. Lake Klamath is vast and thrilling in the early light. I have rice krispie prescription treat with my yogurt. “Smokers stops” are announced throughout the trip; these are train stops long enough for folks to get off the train a while, light up and stretch. I get off at every one but they are few on this Express route. My enhanced snack will help me not to miss them. The distant snowy peaks turn super-real.



Of course, I am friendly with my fellow passengers in coach. People like me who sleep in their seats because they can’t afford sleeping cars. There’s a thin Buddhist gal who also got on in Oakland. She’s from Vancouver lives in San Francisco when not in Asia restoring temples. There’s Jesse a nineteen-year-old with a real resilience and charm despite a harrowing saga. He was abandoned by his meth freak girlfriend with no money, trapped for three days at the Phoenix airport. He couldn’t get a ticket and was not allowed to walk out of the airport. The girl sounds like nothing but trouble and is now incarcerated. He hands me something to read she allegedly wrote and it’s the words to James Brown’s King Heroin with the word meth substituted for heroin. He is from Wyoming where he lost a lung and got hooked himself—tells me it’s an epidemic there. After Phoenix he ended up with his sister in San Diego. Now he has just there left to join his dad in Oregon. I love him as does everyone nearby.
At Eugene I get off for fresh air and sadly find the natural foods restaurant near the station is just closing. I find a deserted spot to smoke in the cool crisp sunshine—so this is Eugene. Great cold water after the stale stuff I drink from a dispenser on the train—save me Virgin Mary through your prayers. Getting back on board I meet Aaron from Victoria, BC and we sit together a while onboard. He helps me to relax about crossing the border with my small stash by telling me what it will be like—no dogs. After a night of just deep rest crammed-in with the cowboy, I get at last an hour’s sleep. Then I can hold out no longer and I waste money on train fare in the dining car. At first I have to wait and start to feel sickly. Then the smiling black porter mafia leader who annoys us every hour shilling seats in a pseudo-DJ tone motions me over. He seats me with a slightly hostile bourgeois black girl. I must admit I feel and must look a bit bleary. After my blood pressure meds and a beer with the food (baked cod, rather dry), I’m better. We warmed up a bit and were joined by a young handsome Canadian American journalist, someone apparently more to her liking. And happily he seems to find me interesting. There’s a definite class distinction between sleeper and coach passengers. A young professional, she may have begrudged the black staff for seating her with me. To my mind it is a reflection on her quite more than on myself. That’s the train life apparently. Plus the beer after the earlier krispie treat puts me in Oscar Wilde form. They leave abruptly after finishing—I find the dining scene an odd ritual I resolve to avoid especially within the United States.

Friday, 18th. At long last the rail portion of the night’s journey is through. Jennifer, who restores Buddhist temples and who is an artist in her own right, guides me along. Seattle is glimpsed by night, no sign of the Space Needle, as we board a bus that will take us to a customs stop and then onto Vancouver. I am able to maintain fairly well through this relying on my sweet older guy disposition and not worrying about the cassette box full of smokes in my front pocket.
I also keep my traveler’s checks there. My tickets are in my coat’s breast pocket and my birth certificate in the pocket of my moleskin journal. The Canadian customs guys are much sterner than the friendly guy who let my brother and I drive right into Canada with minimal scrutiny in 1972. He asks me why I am traveling to Massachusetts. I tell him I need to see to family business-- my Mother went into an old folks’ home and the family home was sold. He waves me on. There had been a tattooed young man with us on board who made a joke about pound of dope. I told him not to even joke—a sense of humor, that’s a 20th Century thing. Well everyone gets back on the bus except for him at first. Then they let him through and I pat him on the back. It seems he’s an active serviceman and they are beginning to see deserters from the Iraqi theater heading for Canada. Lots of jest amid the relieved and weary passengers as we traverse the empty streets toward Vancouver train station.
It’s a lovely station too and it’s fast good-byes everyone scrambles to grab taxis. I had aimed for a hotel with low rates I’d seen in a guide book. But a friendly local lady from the train says it’s a grungy neighbor hood and that I should go to my second choice the YMCA despite its higher rates. I heed her advice but neglect my mental note to call first. At nearly 3 AM a Indian cab driver whisks me away toward the high rise downtown. At the YMCA I forget the exchange rate and even tip him too much on top of it. He races off and when I get to the door I see the “no vacancy” sign. So it’s back on the street reluctant to flag another cab and be charged to figure out where to go.
I see a bearded guy in a Black leather coat and ask him for directions. As we talk five angry young Asian guys approach us downhill. One kicks over a news stand in our direction. “Easy does it,” I say never losing my cool. The other guy starts trading comments with them and I ask him to knock it off--I have all my valuables and don’t feel like a fight.
They leave and I listen to what turns out to be another bum steer. He tells me there’s a YWCA within walking distance. I had read about a really nice one in Vancouver so I set off downtown. I stop to ask another guy why he’s videotaping empty streets at this hour. He’s from the local TV station and he’s waiting for a cinema to let out the first viewers from a midnight show of the new Harry Potter movie. It gets weirder as I pass furtive looking street people and walk into a financial district. I find what turns out to be merely offices of the YMCA--no hotel. Next door is a very expensive-looking Fairmont Hotel that I know better to even attempt. Up a side street I see the St. Regis a quaint looking hotel that I may be able to afford. The guy meets me in the doorway and says there’s no available rooms. At the least, he helps by directing me to Grandville Avenue where there are numerous hotels.
Getting there is again somewhat risky but fortunately the drunk and underworld types I pass by see me as suitably questionable myself. Here there are recently closed for the evening rock clubs and assorted dives still attracting stragglers. I try one hotel but it’s somewhat expensive so I shove off. Next I enter a side street sports-theme Day’s Inn lobby. A complete dump the guy still wants a high rate. I say, “For a noon checkout?!” He obviously doesn’t want me to stay and says “Eleven!” As I leave I say, “This is some kind of prostitution place.” He grins in apparent agreement. My fortune changes with my next try—a high rise Howard Johnson’s on lower Grandville. After a scrimmage at the desk I go up to the rather agreeable room—nice furnishings, cable TV, even a coffee maker with good coffee. I adjust to the place after a shower there is an urban humming outside as I fall asleep at last at four AM.




My North American Travel Pass


In 2005, pressing family business supplied both the motive and the funds for me to realize a long-held desire--to cross Canada and return to California through the United States by train. I began my preparations for the trip by perusing travel guides to British Columbia. In one of these I discovered information on the availability of a North American Travel Pass. For an affordable flat rate, one obtained a pass that enabled a traveler to have unlimited rides in Canada and the U.S.A. for one month. You were required to travel in both countries, and it could not be in a back and forth manner such as for trips from New York to Montreal and back on business. It was intended to promote tourism on both sides of the border.
This bit of information held the key to my plans.

Leaving Oakland for Vancouver in mid-November 2005, I began a monumental rail trip that would go on from Bristish Columbia with stops in Jasper, Winnepeg, Toronto, Montreal, New York City, and Boston. After a week spent in Massachusetts, I left Providence in a snow storm bound for New York, Chicago, Denver, Reno and all points in between.
I crossed North America twice in twenty-eight days. That included Canada the wide part of the continent. As a legal medical marijuana in my home state of California, I was able to resupply in Vancouver. I spent every one of those days graced by smokable and edible cannabis. It helped me to feel better, it made life more interesting, and it kept the haiku poems coming.
This publication consists of the poems, journals, reflections, photos, artworks, as well as found images and documents, all resulting from the trip and my subsequent fireside contemplation.

Admiting the cliche, still one is tempted to say, "All aboard!"



Store window, Greenwich Village, New York

Monday, April 27, 2009

California Haiku

One more snow cap peak
another icy river
approaching land’s end






Closed-down bars hotels
a hawk leaves a leafless tree
flies over the train






Wild west railroad bridge
a stone bison emerges
patchy winter fur






A frozen basin
the sun highlights ridge-back hills
places no one walks






The evening star bright
a final sculpted sundown
lonely Christmas lights






Magenta skyline
to indigo night-time
in thirty degrees






Lucid moon and stars
a moving wall of fir trees
open train window






In crystalline night
coming down from the mountains
slow snowfall of stars


Nevada Haiku

Nuclear test site
sun-burnt skeletal buildings
functional chapel






If these aren’t badlands
then I don’t know what would be
a graceful blackbird






In a narrow pass
anthropomorphic rock face
observes Mount Shasta






The ducks move sideways
in the rapid rail-side stream
the hills get furry






Two rock formations
one is black the other white
shaped like human skulls






Ghost mountain haunts me
keeps looking in my window
outside of Elko






Along the phone lines
insulators hang mid-air
trucks duel on the road

Saltair

Mystical mountains
a carnival of souls
the endless salt lake







An ornate ruin
on the frozen salt expanse
sudden art brut rock







Before emptiness
the Victorian ice palace
suggests infinite